Hi! I’ve resolved to write more — I decided to commit to a 30 day blogging challenge entitled “You are enough”. Day 1’s topic is about tattoos that are meaningful to me. Since, as of now, I remain un-inked, I will detail tattoo ideas that have caught my eye, both in the past and presently.
The first tattoo I was interested in getting was a logo of sorts of one of my favorite musical groups at the time, the Cocteau Twins. The image was a blend of a calla lily (one of my favorite flowers) and a woman balancing on one hand, while wearing a long, full skirt. I viewed it as a hypnotizing melange of two beautiful images. It was something I seriously considered until the Cocteau Twins cancelled their 2005 Coachella show, which utterly broke my heart at the time. In retrospect, all I can do is offer up a wry smile at how entrenched I was in adoration of musical performers…but to a young 20-something, music was life! Music was an escape from my stressful student lifestyle! I still consider myself an audiophile; however, I keep most things at arm’s length these days, probably for fear of being disappointed. At any rate, I abandoned the notion of getting that tattoo shortly after the much-anticipated show cancellation.
Fast-forward to 2018 –> Two tattoos have caught my eye, both of which are heavily symbolic for me. The first one is a quote: “Though she be but little, she is fierce” — a line from Shakespeare’s A Midsummer Night’s Dream. There’s a duality of meaning behind this quote for me: my daughter fights Rett Syndrome daily. She is little…she’s not even 3 1/2 years old. She was diagnosed at 17 months old with this horrible neuromuscular/movement disorder. There are myriad issues with her physical body, including difficulty putting on weight….and yet, she continues to grow and thrive.
A deeper personal meaning of the quote is pertinent to me. I oftentimes feel so little, so helpless, so ill-equipped to deal with something so monstrous as a lifelong disability diagnosis..and YET, I persist…like the fierce mama bear I’ve become. A core characteristic of my personality is to persist and fight for what I believe is right, what is just, and what is important.
I liked the arrow included in this tattoo design because, to me, it symbolizes movement, progress, and a lack of stagnation! One of my current favorite words is: Onward! It is a straightforward way of saying, “Okay, this is a means to an end, let’s progress to the next step. What’s next?” Onward.
The other tattoo that I have my heart set on is a compass rose. The compass has sentimental meaning to a very special Butch in my life, and to me. She and I met almost a year ago by way of the internet. I reached out to her to get some help with a relationship situation I was struggling with, and she and I ended up hitting it off. We’ve grown closer, fallen for each other, and formed an unbreakable bond over the course of the last year. She’s had her struggles, as I’ve had mine; while our lives and histories have taken significantly different paths, we’ve become pretty tightly intertwined. We enjoy doing a lot of the same things, and we both have our own brand of wanderlust…thus, a compass is a perfect illustration of both literal and figurative “pointing in the right direction”. On my first trip to to New England to meet her and spend some time together, she bought a necklace for me with a compass pendant, signifying a directional helper of sorts, so that I could find my way back to her again. It worked — I’ve been back to visit 3 more times this year. ❤ ❤ ❤